The Realization

Typically I forget that I am even missing an arm, I am so use to it now that I do not normally remember. Yesterday was for some reason one of the days it really stood out to me that I was "different". I went to Chicago yesterday and as I walked around I did not really notice people staring which was great! I wore a tank top because I am fully confident in the way God has created me, but for some reason the people, and place got to me in a sensative way. I carried my shopping bags on my left hand as I always do, and when my arm got tired I switched to my right, although when I changed hands my little arm felt so much lighter, as it should but it had never felt the way it had that day. As I walked through the city and through each glass window I looked and saw my reflection. My arm was noticable to me, more than usual. As I walked I wondered what went through other people's heads as they saw me. I asked myself do I look funny? It is on very rare occasion that I have a moment when being so called "different" gets to me in an emotional way. Luckily I have Paige to go through each moment with me. Yes I am confident in who I am, I would never change that I was born with only one arm, I am thankful God made me the way he did. But I also want you to know that I am human, we all have those days, and always will have moments when something can tear us up emotionally. No one is perfect. My point is... Its okay to have days when you want to cry and break down, but with every question there is an answer. With every doubt just pray. When you walk do not hide who you are, be proud of who God has created you to be and do not worry for what is to come. As I walked bible versus popped into my head and they are these..

Psalm 139:14 - "I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."

1 John 4:16 - "So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him."